I've had a lot of trials in my life, as has everyone. In fact, I've had a lot of trials with my own salvation within the past two years or so. I've had a hard time with a lot of different personal things for myself. I'm not perfect, as no one is. In fact, I haven't even really read my scriptures REALLY REALLY for about 2 or 3 years. Like I said, I've been struggling. Over this past semester, I've had a LOT of personal awakenings that have ALL touched me in their own ways. Have I come right around and been totally Molly Mormon? No. I haven't. But as time has been going on and I've been struggling, I've also been realizing my need for my Savior, and Reedemer, Jesus Christ so much more than I've EVER known before. Honestly, I have never known how much I truly need Christ to save me after I've done all that I can do. But I've also been really stubborn as well. I knew I wasn't being who I should be, or where I should be, but I didn't change. I didn't even really try. I just repented and cried, pleading for forgiveness and trying all over again, but knewing I would mess up again because I wan't REALLY wanting to change yet. I hadn't had that change of heart.
Over the past couple of days and a week or two, however, I have been very humbled. I KNOW how much I love God and Christ and I KNOW that they love me and that they want me to repent and FORSAKE and return to them again. I have been doing all that, for my own sake, and for those that I love, and especially for my future family.
I know I could have done so much more and been so much better, but through these awfully difficult, prodigal experiences, I have come to know my Savior's love and grace more, in my life.
Am I perfect? Absolutely not. Am I exactly where I want to be right now? Not completley. I still have trials and such that I am overcoming and things I have to face, but now that I am doing it WITH Christ, I KNOW I can survive and that I can and WILL defeat Satan. I love my God and my Savor. I am going to try with ALL my might to make them proud from this day on.
Over the past couple of days and a week or two, however, I have been very humbled. I KNOW how much I love God and Christ and I KNOW that they love me and that they want me to repent and FORSAKE and return to them again. I have been doing all that, for my own sake, and for those that I love, and especially for my future family.
I know I could have done so much more and been so much better, but through these awfully difficult, prodigal experiences, I have come to know my Savior's love and grace more, in my life.
Am I perfect? Absolutely not. Am I exactly where I want to be right now? Not completley. I still have trials and such that I am overcoming and things I have to face, but now that I am doing it WITH Christ, I KNOW I can survive and that I can and WILL defeat Satan. I love my God and my Savor. I am going to try with ALL my might to make them proud from this day on.
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